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Category: on Mental Health

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a Traveling Dragon/on Books I've Read/on Chosen Family/on Chronic Illness/on Generational Trauma/on Grief/on Mental Health/on Perimenopause/Ten Things

ten things: bitch what is going on

Posted on 22 December 2025

I'm really fucking depressed most of the time, is what I'm saying. I am fucking struggling. I am having days where I have so many mood swings that I feel like I...

how can we know how precious it is
a Traveling Dragon/on Mental Health/on Queerness/the Cycle of the Seasons

how can we know how precious it is?

Posted on 2 June 2025

Right now it is June, and I must dance through this month even if it tries to kill me, because I am here, and we are here, and we should live as our brilliant b...

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on Chosen Family/on Deathwork & Griefwork/on Grief/on Hope/on Mental Health

because our choices led us here

Posted on 16 April 2025

I don't know what to say, really, except that this is so incredibly hard and none of us know how to get through it, not really.

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Nix Kelley

about me: who is Nix?

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CURRENTLY READING:

I am on StoryGraph tracking my reading and the reading challenges I've joined. You can go to my StoryGraph profile if you want to see what kind of reading I'm doing right now.

CURRENTLY WATCHING:

I am using MyDramaList now! Here's my MDL profile and my MDL watchlists. I recommend looking at my 2025 watchlist to see what I've watched already and what's on my massive personal wishlist for the year.


HOUSE WAYRETH:

I live in a chosen family that we collectively call House Wayreth. We have a Substack, an Instagram account that I have temporarily forgot how to log into, and a Facebook page.

You can read stuff that some of us write: Ash's writing is temporarily on hiatus for public consumption, but they are on Bluesky. Rob posts semi-regularly on faer website. StarChild posts semi-regularly on their website. And I post here and am occasionally on Threads.

It is our suffering that brings us together. It is not love. Love does not obey the mind, and turns to hate when forced. The bond that binds us is beyond choice. We are brothers. We are brothers in what we share. In pain, which each of us must suffer alone, in hunger, in poverty, in hope, we know our brotherhood. We know it, because we have had to learn it. We know that there is no help for us but from one another, that no hand will save us if we do not reach out our hand. And the hand that you reach out is empty, as mine is. You have nothing. You possess nothing. You own nothing. You are free. All you have is what you are, and what you give.

-- excerpt from The Dispossessed: an Ambiguous Utopia by Ursula K. LeGuin

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