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Author: Nix Kelley

Co-parent to multiple kids. Writer. Death doula. Member of the Order of the Good Death. Seeker on the Path of Light. Queer, non-binary, & trans.
with an everlasting love
on Chosen Family/on Grief/on Hope/on Love/Poems/the Work

with an everlasting love {poem}

Posted on May 2, 2025 by Nix Kelley / 0 Comment

Sometimes there is pain layered into love but that does not make it any less true.

a dark sky with clouds and a rainbow arching down from left to right. there are some tree tops at the bottom of the image.
on Chosen Family/on Deathwork & Griefwork/on Grief/on Hope/on Mental Health

because our choices led us here

Posted on April 16, 2025 by Nix Kelley / 0 Comment

I don't know what to say, really, except that this is so incredibly hard and none of us know how to get through it, not really.

strands of yellow bright light swirled together across a black background
on Chosen Family/on Deathwork & Griefwork/on Grief/on Love

dissolving into Light: even the least of these

Posted on April 8, 2025 by Nix Kelley / 0 Comment

I think I'm learning that even experiencing a Mystery does not mean it can be fully comprehended. The only thing we have is what we noticed, what was revealed, ...

photoshoot of eight members of Stray Kids, all wearing black
on Happiness/on Hope/on Queerness/Ten Things

ten things: an earthquake and the joy of fandoms

Posted on April 5, 2025 by Nix Kelley / 0 Comment

Maybe that's the best outcome of going places I've never been before. Discovering how easy it is to love the beautifulness and culture and sound of a place I've...

a book is standing up and actively on fire
on Chosen Family/on Decolonizing/on Generational Trauma/on Grief/on Harm & Reciprocity/on Rage

write me out of the family bible

Posted on March 1, 2025 by Nix Kelley / 0 Comment

I have no family but the one I choose. And I will choose them over and over and over again because I know what it's like to choose the wrong thing and suffer be...

stumpy-tailed lizard. dark on top with some pale coloring on the belly and legs. texture like a pine cone.
on Chosen Family/on Perimenopause/Ten Things

ten things: wha’ the hail

Posted on February 25, 2025 by Nix Kelley / 0 Comment

I'm not sorry ahead of time for how unhinged this is.

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Hi, I'm Nix!

I am a genderqueer non-binary trans person. I've trained as a death doula and am preparing to be able to do work in the future as a deathworker and griefworker. I write about death and death-adjacent things fairly often.

I am also a practicing pagan, training in the Path of Light tradition under my elder in Renewal Coven. It is an oathbound lineaged mystery tradition, and I write here about my experiences in my learning and growth from time to time.

I'm also part of an intentional community, a family I chose to be part of, which I also love to write about here.

My current special interests include music and song lyrics, kpop, K-dramas, C-dramas, reading queer fiction, and shitposting on any social media account I have available to me.

FIND ME AT:
Mastodon -- @nixkelley
Bluesky -- @nixkelley
Instagram -- @nixveritas [request to follow]
Threads --@nixveritas

MESSAGE ME:
Matrix -- @nixkelley
Signal -- @nixkelley.78
Discord -- @nixkelley
Whatsapp -- +66 92 593 9073
LINE -- nixkelley


SUBSCRIBE AND I'LL BE IN YOUR INBOX


CURRENTLY LISTENING TO ON REPEAT:


CURRENTLY READING:

I am on StoryGraph tracking my reading and the reading challenges I've joined. You can go to my StoryGraph profile if you want to see what kind of reading I'm doing right now.


DRAMA WATCH HISTORY THIS MONTH:

Watching --
Never Let Me Go, on Viki
Between Us, on iQiyi
Jack & Joker: U Steal My Heart, on iQiyi
Boys in Love, on iQiyi (currently on air)
Naughty Babe, on iQiyi
Perfect 10-Liners, on GMMTV YouTube
Thame-Po Heart That Skips A Beat, on GMMTV YouTube
Dead Friend Forever, on iQiyi

Rewatching --
Love In The Air, on iQiyi
LoveSick 2024, on iQiyi

Finished --
Love In The Air [rewatch], on iQiyi
Love In The Air: Special Episode, on iQiyi
Our Dating Sim, on Viki
See Your Love, on iQiyi
Fish Upon the Sky, on iQiyi
Hidden Agenda, on GMMTV YouTube

MyDramaList profile; MyDramaList watchlists


... when Skywoman arrived here, she did not come alone. She was pregnant. Knowing her grandchildren would inherit the world she left behind, she did not work for flourishing in her time only. It was through her actions of reciprocity, the give and take with the land, that the original immigrant became indigenous. For all of us, becoming indigenous to a place means living as if your children's future mattered, to take care of the land as if our lives, both material and spiritual, depended on it.

-- excerpt from Braiding Sweetgrass by Robin Wall Kimmerer

remember who you are

It is our suffering that brings us together. It is not love. Love does not obey the mind, and turns to hate when forced. The bond that binds us is beyond choice. We are brothers. We are brothers in what we share. In pain, which each of us must suffer alone, in hunger, in poverty, in hope, we know our brotherhood. We know it, because we have had to learn it. We know that there is no help for us but from one another, that no hand will save us if we do not reach out our hand. And the hand that you reach out is empty, as mine is. You have nothing. You possess nothing. You own nothing. You are free. All you have is what you are, and what you give.

-- excerpt from The Dispossessed: an Ambiguous Utopia by Ursula K. LeGuin

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