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Category: on Queerness

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on Chosen Family/on Deathwork & Griefwork/on Hope/on Queerness

I am one with my queerness and my queerness is with me

Posted by Nix Kelley

I love you, my siblings. My family. My dearest friends.

a three dimensional web of green rope against a clay colored background
on Chronic Illness/on Mental Health/on Queerness/the Pandemic

fragments of self

Posted by Nix Kelley

The self that exists in meatspace and on the internet has become fragmented in a way that deeply upsets me.

three round hay bales in a foggy field
on Chosen Family/on Chronic Illness/on Deathwork & Griefwork/on Decolonizing/on Harm & Reciprocity/on Mental Health/on Queerness/the Pandemic

I write what hurts my feelings

Posted by Nix Kelley

The pain leads me to what is true.

people marching with many signs, including a large sign held by several people, white with black letters that reads "we who believe in freedom cannot rest" by Ella Baker
on Deathwork & Griefwork/on Hope/on Queerness/the Work

fight like hell for the living

Posted by Nix Kelley

It is never far from my thoughts that some of us have already said our last words to those who are beloved.

a nearly-full moon partially obscured by clouds above pine trees on a dark night
on Perimenopause/on Queerness

ugh

Posted by Nix Kelley

I have been in peri-menopause for a while now, at least three years, I think? Maybe more? I should be keeping better track.

a pink paper heart ripped in the middle, hanging on a red and white striped wire against a black background
on Deathwork & Griefwork/on Generational Trauma/on Harm & Reciprocity/on Hope/on Queerness

I dream of disappointing my mother

Posted by Nix Kelley

I had a bad dream which was trying to be a good dream, but it was a bad dream because none of it is true.

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Nix Kelley
Nix Kelley
Genderqueer non-binary trans. They/them/theirs. Death doula, clergy-in-training, writing about queer identity, death, hope, praxis, & song lyrics.

I'm at the Pizza Hut, I'm at the Taco Bell
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I READ BANNED BOOKS

GENDERQUEER: a memoir (deluxe edition) by Maia Kobabe, read in one day in April 2023

We Do This Til We Free Us (audiobook) by Mariame Kaba, finished in May 2023


We're each of us alone, to be sure. What can you do but hold your hand out in the dark?

Ursula K. Le Guin, The Wind's Twelve Quarters, Volume 1
remember who you are

The future cannot blame the present, just as the present cannot blame the past. The hope is always here, always alive, but only your fierce caring can fan it into a fire to warm the world.

Susan Cooper, Silver on the Tree
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